Last Wednesday Isaiah started wheezing and coughing so bad that i had to take him into the doctor. He had been up most of the night before and had coughed so hard that he threw up twice. Both my older brother and i have struggled with asthma, so i didn't want to take a chance with Isaiah. He was really struggling to breath Thursday morning and i was starting to get nervous. Luckily, we were able to see his regular doctor. Isaiah hates the doctors office. As soon as they called us back and wanted to weigh him he began to cry and cried the entire office visit until we left... which made him loose his voice. The doctor said he was extremely congested and seemed to be suffering from allergies of some sort which was flaring up the asthma. Sadly, he can't be tested for allergies until he is 3 or 4.
As soon as we got home his eyes started looking a bit different: more red, watery, and swollen than usual. By Saturday his eyes were so bad that i was almost certain he had pink eye. Both Friday and Saturday he had woken up unable to open his eyes from "drainage".
(sorry if this post grosses anyone out)
Saturday afternoon i had to take him BACK to the on-call doctor. She said he seemed to be suffering from a Viral Infection which could be causing the eye drainage, but since he has been recently exposed to pink eye she prescribed him some eye gel to clear up any bacteria. Now any one who knows me knows that i am not one to take an offer of Antibiotics. I don't even take pain meds. I truly believe in the bodies ability to heal itself, and chemicals put into the body seem to be more of a disruptor of that process that anything. I am nothing close to a doctor, but i believe God knew exactly what he was doing when he created us and our immune systems. Isaiah may seem to get sick often (at least he does to me) But he always seems to get over his colds/Flues very fast, which has always given me confidence in his immune system. Call me a "Crazy Crunchy Mama" and i'll wear the title proudly. :-D
Anyways, it has been almost a week now and Isaiah's eyes have been slowly clearing up and his cough seems more loose than it was. He still is coughing pretty hard, which Dan and i think popped a blood vessel in one eye. The other afternoon he also bumped his OTHER eye on our coffee table which left him with a nasty bruise ..... so as of now he pretty much looks like he was recently beat up... my poor baby boy!!
It has felt like a very long week, which has left me feeling very impatient. I feel like lately i have been constantly asking God for more peace, patience and grace when it comes to parenting. There have been some days where i feel so inadequate to be a Mama and i know that is exactly what satan wants me to believe. He wants me to raise my voice, roll my eyes, and speak a condescending word. He wants me to fail and lead Isaiah down a crooked path... he wants all my worst fears to come true. That is so not the case with God who is cheering for me every single day, all day long. The days that i feel the most impatient are the days that i have failed to go to God with all my needs. I can't expect myself to be a perfect parent but if i humble myself and consistently lay my broken heart before God i know that He will give me what i need, when i need it, He always has! Parenting was one thing that i never wanted to mess up, because i know how much it can hurt a child's heart. I need to also remind myself that i am a sinner and even if i mess things up God has the power to heal what I have broken.
So these are just a couple things that i have been thinking about, praying about, and dealing with. If your a Mama, i am sure you know exactly how i feel, and on those days that you tend to lose your patience you can think of me and remember that your not alone either. :-D
The LORD is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise Him. ~ Ex.15:2
A few pics of Isaiah looking a bit under the weather....
|He found a robins egg in our yard.|